DAY 8…Well, That Was a Challenging Day

Sometimes, good enough is good enough and that’s okay!

I woke up to a cloud covered, rainy day which made feel a bit down. I don’t have an official diagnosis of SAD, Seasonal Affective Disorder, however, when I don’t see the sunshine my mood is definitely affected. I NEED bright, happy sun shining in my life to be at my best. Anyway, moving right along…

Coffee, I think, just get to the coffee and all will be right in my world. I let the dog out and headed into the kitchen. I flipped the light switch as I strolled by, my feet never breaking stride. Two steps later, I realize the light isn’t on. I put myself into reverse. Off, on, off, on, off, on…what is wrong with this thing? There is no light, ugh! Damn lightbulb. I ignored the burnt-out light and proceed with brewing my morning joe.

I’m giving myself some grace at this point because it also happens to be the anniversary of my husband’s death and I know my emotions are probably running a bit higher than usual. Little did I know, the curve balls would continue ALL DAY LONG.

I used the guest bathroom because it was one room closer to me and walking the extra 20 steps to my own bathroom seemed a bit too much to endure. The toilet handle broke. I set the tank lid on the seat and left the room.

Then my son called; what a delight hearing from him so early in the morning! He needed help with a canceled book order for his college classes. This is urgent because he is now in his second week of classes with no books and is unable to complete his assignments. He also asks for help with a tax issue that has a deadline pending in the next few days. We would have known this sooner had he opened his mail when it arrived. I can’t fault him for this one, he comes by it honestly; I hate opening the mail. I force myself to do it maybe once a month. (Insert deep sigh here.)

I turned on the water in my shower, went out to grab a coffee refill and my Bluetooth speaker so I could sing along to some feel-good country music while I showered. When I returned, the bathroom floor was flooded– it wasn’t even 9 AM.

‘It’s okay, I’ve got this’ – I told myself with a semi-forced smile.

I made it to work in one piece – win! It was a busy day and the time passed quickly. I was looking forward to getting home, pouring a glass of wine and scrolling through social media for a while before bed. I checked in on my September challenge group for the day’s challenge. What? Really? Are you kidding me? The day’s challenge was to NOT drink alcohol!!! This cannot be happening today; pick any other day and I’ll skip the wine. Please don’t ask this of me today! Not today!

Time to go home. I started the engine and heard – ding, ding, ding. The dashboard was lit up with orange and red hues. The flat tire warning light was lit. I stared at it, motionless, reminding myself to breathe. Minutes passed, and then, I put the car into reverse. Driving through the parking lot did not affect the tire pressure; it was holding steady, so I drove home and decided to ignore it. If it’s really a problem, I deal with it tomorrow.

I didn’t do my workout. It’s okay.

I didn’t walk. It’s okay.

I didn’t drink much water. It’s okay.

I didn’t get a meditation in. It’s okay.

I didn’t read. It’s okay.

I didn’t write. It’s okay.

I didn’t do my gratitude practice. It’s okay

 

I drank the wine. It’s okay.

I ate well. Yay!

 

I made it through the day with a smile on my face, and a good enough, positive attitude. Sometimes, good enough is good enough and that’s okay!